It still fucking hurts

I cried yesterday and I cried today

Hot painful tears that I couldn't help

And even though I read an article saying that when men are fearful, guilty, worried or anxious they retreat

It still fucking hurts

I want to get over this

I need to get over this

My life is too busy right now to be distracted

I managed a week away, with barely a thought

But now I'm back, now the mundanity is kicking it

It still fucking hurts

And all I want to do is let you know - but that is selfish - because I want you to know how much it hurts so that I can be reassured that it hurts you too, or that you are regretting it or that you somehow are struggling too

But I don't want you to be struggling or to be hurting because I want you to be happy with the choice you made

But it still fucking hurts