Pace, Boredom, Fatigue

I sometimes wonder (okay worry) that you will tire of me, of play, of the B and the S bit of BDSM. It's not like this is new for you - you must have 'done stuff' a million times before where of course it is all so so new to me that it is still tinged with a lot of magic. You talk about response and of pace and I understand how you measure both so as not to send me running for cover with cushions and fear. But from my perspective, I want you to be happy, to be loving all of this as much as me, to want to see where we can go and what we can do, experience, understand and feel.

I have no worries about how you feel about me (HUGE GRIN)

I have no concerns that we are utterly and totally compatible. (HUGER GRIN STILL)

My wobble stems from the fear that you will start going through the motions just to please me and I never want that.

Part of me wants to run a marathon before I can barely crawl. That'll be my impatient side then......But I also know that you are holding me tight so I don't fall, falter, fail or flail.

I always want you to be honest with me so that if you feel like, you know, it's just becoming routine and you can do it with your eyes closed and you're not feeling it deep in your chest like I am, then you can and must tell me.

Not sure why I am worried really as I understand that you for you, the pleasure comes not only from inflicting (good) pain but also (and more importantly) from watching me grow and develop. This is the real D/s - the confidence you bestow in me to go out there and achieve and be what you believe I can be. But there is also the hitty, restraint, play, pleasure, pain, challenge side that I love and I want to be sure you do too.

Crumbs. Talk about separation anxiety......

xxxx